Equilibrium was the second in the first batch of vignettes I published on my first website, Tales from a Storm. Reading it again, it is a difficult read for me. It was written about a time when I was at my lowest and I just wanted a way out.
I grew up suppressed and oppressed, and I now realise that much of it was from my own making and my reluctance to accept the gay in me.
Regular readers will know that I battle depression, I’m fine now by the way, but this takes me to a time when I wasn’t and a way out was never far from my mind. I never embraced my depression nor accepted it, so never sought any help.
With ‘A Quiet Moon’ this vignette is a look into my soul and am surprised how brave I was to put it on the internet, out there forever. If I was starting my first website now I’m not sure I would have had the guts to include this. But I’m not going to pull it now.
Don’t worry, the stuff gets lighter from now on.
If you or anyone you know is struggling with any mental health issues then I urge you to seek out help. If or when you do I hope you get the help you deserve.
Some websites I have found are:
LGBT Switchboard (UK)
NHS Mental Health for LGBT (UK)
LGBT Hotline (US)