Without a Touch by David Heulfryn

Min delves deeper into Max’s sexual history, what little there is for a fourteen-year-old boy going on fifteen. These late-night conversations with his brother seem to bring Max out of his shell. Both boys know whatever they say to each during these conversations will remain between them.

I’m enjoying writing this short series. I wanted to do something different and not just write about sex and brothers having sex. I wanted to explore the relationship between the brothers and how two boys in the throes of puberty deal with their new feelings and changes in their bodies and minds. I like the personal time the two boys have between going to bed and falling asleep. It’s a time just for them to talk frankly to each other, with neither boy judging the other.

Each chapter is dialogue-heavy, but that is what you’d expect from two people talking before they go to sleep. I’ve purposefully not been very descriptive so the reader can interpret the visuals themselves. The brothers’ bedroom is always very dark when they go to bed, so there is not much to actually see except shadows. I hope it works. But I’d be happy to add a little description in future if you feel it is needed.

Going Too Far by David Heulfryn

Little Min wants to embarrass his brother again, so while they lie in bed, he asks about masturbation. Poor Max is desperate to keep his solo sex life private, but Min is always very persistent.

The following morning, he drags his brother out of bed, and his arse gets exposed in the tussle. Min can’t resist the urge to slap his big brother’s arse cheeks.

This short series came out of nowhere. It started with a germ of an idea and has just grown. I don’t usually write about boys so young, but I just like writing about the dynamic between two brothers. Having an older brother myself, we never had the little chats that Max and Min have. Could my subconscious be telling me that I wish we did? Growing up, we were close, but by the time we got to Max and Min’s age, we’d grown apart and led very different lives.

And just a few words about the picture I chose to illustrate the story; I know I used it as part of the ExploreCockaigne.uk website. But I just find it so sweet.

My Massive Cock

No, I’m not bragging. This post is not about me, but a new Channel 4 programme. The TV channel that brought us “Naked Attraction” and “Naked, Alone and Racing to Get Home” now brings us a programme about the problems of having a massive cock. Despite the salacious title, the programme actually addresses the real issue that some men have with the size of their penis. We have all seen porn with guys with massive cocks and even read some erotic stories about guys with cocks that would make your eyes water. But very few men haven’t wished they had a bigger dick.

For those readers not based in the UK, Channel 4 is a terrestrial television channel that is a public service broadcaster. Ofcom, the television regulator, says:

“Public service broadcasting (PSB) has a long and proud tradition in the UK, delivering impartial and trusted news, UK-originated programmes and distinctive content.”

Whereas the BBC (and I’m talking about the broadcaster, not big black cocks) tends to play it safe with its programming, although it also tackles some hard-hitting issues, Channel 4 is different and tackles different, and sometimes taboo, issues.

I have to say, the title draws you in, with the expectation of seeing some big cocks, but the content was interesting and thought-provoking. The fantasy is different to the reality.

Scott trains a local football team, is fed up with being known as just a big cock, and has even been filmed in the changing room without his consent. Those pics and videos have been shared among his team and mates. While on a date, someone even came up to his date and said that he had a massive cock. I find it shocking that people think this is appropriate behaviour.

Another guy featured is Joe, who says he receives daily abuse over the size of his cock and how people will stare as he walks down the street. He’s only 22 and recounts an instance when he was about 14 years old and in the showers after playing football. This incident made him realise that his cock is larger than others. One lad turned to his friend and said, “Have you seen? That thing is despicable.” refering to the size of Joe’s cock. And then the rumours went all around the school.

Joe says he didn’t get a job because they thought his behaviour in the interview was inappropriate. It turned out that the prominent bulge in his suit trousers made them believe he had a hard-on throughout the interview. He explains how difficult it is to hide his bulge and has to spend £200 a year on underwear specially made for guys with large cocks.

Joe takes a mould of his erect cock and shows it to some friends in a pub. He also says that he gets birthday cards showing his cock. He admits that he was sending nudes on Snapchat and accidentally sent some to a group chat, who all took screen grabs. This just goes to show the dangers of sending nude pics.

But these two guys are just regular fellas. Another guy with a massive cock has gone into porn.

Andy Lee was seen in a locker room by a guy who saw the size of his cock and asked if he’d ever considered doing porn. So he did, and we see him hooking up with a couple; the lady is obsessed with penis size, while her partner films her having sex with guys with big dicks, who apparently isn’t a shrinking violet in the cock department himself.

The programme also dealt with the fetishisation of black men and the urban myth that all black men have massive cocks. Also, the issue of “size queens” who are only interested in the dick and not the person it is attached to. One guy had become so distressed about the size of his cock that he considered a penis reduction. As he speaks to the surgeon, who keeps mentioning amputation, he explains the complications and how complicated and extreme the procedure of penis reduction is.

One guy also mentions that when he had sex, he could feel excessive moisture as he was fucking. When the lights went on, he discovered it was blood, not their sex fluids. After that incident, he didn’t have sex for a year.

The programme won’t stop me from fantasising about large cocks, but it made me realise that having one isn’t always the blessing we think it is.

Titles… Titles… Titles…

Some come easy, some come hard, and some never come.

I have a love/hate relationship with titles. Sometimes I write a great story, but I just cannot come up with a decent title or at least one I like. My newest story, “The Little Sneak”, stayed unpublished for over a week while I tried to come up with a title. It had a working title of “Max & Min”, the names of the two brothers, but I really don’t like titles that are just the names of the characters in the story; I think it is lazy and, more often than not, from experience, the stories tend to be terrible. But I just couldn’t think of a title! “The Little Sneak” was the best of a bad bunch, and I’m reasonably happy with it. But now I have a problem with what to call the follow-up.

The next part is already half-written and sees Min tease his older brother about masturbation. Poor Max, I feel his embarrassment.

I agonised for weeks to come up with a title for my novel, “Becoming Kes”, not the best, but it’s okay, I suppose. The half-written sequel novella is also titleless. And I have a series about some college guys going on a final school trip to France stuck in my titleless hell.

And then there are stories where the title is there from the start, or it just leaps from the screen as I’m writing, “A Black Cappucino…” was a title I had in my head from the start. Sometimes the title writes the story.

For every title hell, there is a title heaven, and the pain of coming up with a title never spoils the pleasure of writing the story.

The Little Sneak by David Heulfryn

Finally, a new story! I hear you cry. But yes, I’ve now got around to editing and posting my latest short story, which will have a sequel, but it’s still in my head and not written yet. I’ve not written any new Cockaigne Chronicles yet, but I hope to return to that special town soon. I have more stories about that exciting place.

This story is about voyeurism and two brothers growing up. I have been intrigued by voyeurism for some time now. There is just something about watching people in private. You get to see who they really are and not just the facade they put on when out in public. It doesn’t necessarily have to be anything sexual either, but in this story, it is.

One particular scene is based on an account of a friend who walked into their son’s bedroom after he had a shower and saw his arse as he was bending down. The family are very open, and nudity has never been something to be ashamed of. I wish I had been more open when I was younger, but body shaming was rife where I grew up, and school was pretty traumatic if you veered away from what they decided was the norm at the time. So I like to strip away my hang-ups in the stories I write.

I hope you enjoy this, and there will definitely be more stories to come.