Queer Writing for a Queer World
//Simon is a 28-year-old bartender, originally from Poland and now living in Birmingham. Leon had three guys and three ladies to choose from; he got rid of his final guy because it didn’t feel natural, even though he liked the way tattooed hands playing with cocks.
//Jonathan is a 26-year-old retail assistant from Essex. Leon rejected this guy as he didn’t like how he ate his sausage, and that’s not a euphemism; he wanted to see how they ate as he hates messy and loud eaters. I think he’s a cute little winker.
//Javoy is a 26-year-old chef from East London. He was the first person let go because the others had more allure.
//Naked Attarction is back, socially distanced of course but not even Covid-19 can stop Channel 4 showing some cock and fanny. Although there will only be cock here.
Iain is a 32-year-old IT Consultant from Manchester by day, and a pro-wrestler by night, known as Jet Fashion. He has such a cute cock, but I don’t think I could cope with his wrestling persona for long.
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Robbie and Jack remain close. Jack’s relationships with girls are beginning to get more physical, and he confides his feelings and fears to Robbie. After a night out, they have another sleepover, this time Jack nocturnal activities involve Robbie.
For those readers more familiar with American English, I use the word ‘fanny’ in this story. In this case, it means a ladies front-bottom and not a persons back-bottom.
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Hormones are surging in the blood of the teenage friends. During an impromptu sleepover, Jack does something other than sleepwalking and Robbie has an accident in his briefs.
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I’ve had this story brewing for some time (I hope you like the pun), and I am now happy with it. I think my problem was how to inject some sex into the story without it feeling forced. Well, in the end, I decided not to inject sex into the story as it just doesn’t fit.
This short story is about the beginning of a relationship, how two young men meet by chance. I always intended this to be a one-off, and although it lends itself to many possibilities, I won’t be expanding on it. What happened next will be left to your imagination. I was interested in exploring how a relationship begins, and that’s why there is no sex in this story.
I hope you like it, even if it won’t get you off.
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Robbie is beginning to feel an attraction to boys but doesn’t fully understand why he is different. He has another sleepover at Jack’s place and during a bout of sleepwalking in the middle of the night, Robbie gets to see his best friend naked.
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When two young friends have a sleepover Robbie discovers something unusual. He’s confused, and his friend’s reaction really upsets him. When Jack’s mother explains what happened, he doesn’t quite understand, but the two boys remain friends.
I wanted this short series to chart the development and growth of two friends throughout their lives. This first part is a sweet story about two innocent eight-year-olds.
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I have been reluctant to watch ‘It’s a Sin’, the new series by Russell T. Davies, who brought us the brilliant ‘Queer as Folk’.
Why?
Well, because it deals with the AIDS crisis in the 1980s. And I knew it would have a profound effect on me and drag up my feelings from that decade.
I grew up during that time and slowly coming to terms with my homosexuality, and AIDS had a massive effect on me. It all came flooding back as I watched. The blame, the disgust, the abuse that was directed at the gay male community was destructive and further vilified gay men. Worse still, it gave people an excuse to discriminate and be abusive. I have to say that at my young age, it scared the shit out of me. Although I was still at school and not sexually active, it made me scared of gay sex and of being gay. It made me feel that if I had sex, I could die.
I’m not ashamed to say that I cried when Colin died. His character was the one that I identified with, shy, awkward and Welsh. Here was a man that wasn’t sexually promiscuous, but it still caught up with him. All it took was sex with one effected partner, and you were passed a death sentence.
The last episode had the same effect on me; my eyes were stinging by the end. The last speech by Jill really hit home and took me back to the time when I felt guilty and ashamed at being gay. Thankfully I have moved on; I’m happy being my version of gay. But it makes me so upset and angry that I had to experience those times and being made to feel that way.
Where I grew up, being gay meant catching AIDS, which meant dying. This message was sent out through the media and government messages. It made me scared of my sexuality and caused me to stay in the closet longer than I should have. I grew up in a very homophobic environment, not at home, though; there, I just experienced the casual ‘homophobia’ that was acceptable at the time, calling people pufters and such. But school and the greater society was different. No one dared come out at school. No one wanted to be thought of as gay.
What really surprised me about the series was the battle that Russell T. Davies had in getting it made. He has a successful track record with television series, Queer as Folk, Year and Years, and not to mention the enormous debt of gratitude I have to him for making the return of Doctor Who the massive success it deserved to be.
So with a great writer behind the project, why the reluctance? And why did he have to fight for that fifth episode when Channel Four only wanted four episodes.
It could only be the subject matter.
That saddens me and makes me realise that we still have so far to go. AIDS is no longer the death sentence it used to be, but this programme shows how deep-rooted homophobia was in society, all society. To use a contemporary phrase, there was ‘institutionalised homophobia’. And I think some in the medical profession have a lot to be ashamed of in the way they approached the AIDS pandemic. Politicians also need to question their actions as there decisions filtered down society to make being gay and AIDS effectively interchangeable.
Watching this series, I wonder if we have learnt anything. Sections of our society are still being persecuted for being different. Gay may now be accepted (?), but there is so many other sexualities, so many other genders.
This is a very emotional post for me but something I wanted to say. When something affects you as deeply as this series, I just needed to express my thoughts and let you know my experience of living through that hell of a decade, not just AIDS-wise, but in so many other ways.
On the positive side, 80s music is fucking awesome. I’ve done nothing but listen to it while working from home in lockdown.